Friday, 19 November 2010

Dengan ikhlas aku berkata

Assalammualaikum.
Hi !


Hari ni hari Jumaat, hari mulia. Dengan itu, aku nak ambil kesempatan. Bukan nak mencabul atau menganiaya orang, 
tetapi aku nak minta maaf !




Maaf atas segala kebodohan aku,
maaf atas segala kedegilan aku,
maaf atas segala kegedikkan aku,
maaf atas segala kejahilan aku,
maaf atas segala penipuan aku,
maaf atas segala kecabulan mulut aku,
maaf atas segala kesombongan aku,
maaf atas segala kelalaian aku,
maaf atas segala kata kutukan aku,
maaf atas segala semua perkara yang telah menyakitkan hati kau semua!




Maaf, maaf, maaf, maaf, maaf, maaf, dan maaf  
yang seikhlas-ikhlasnya daripada aku 
Norqristina Bt Noor Ariff,  
yang tidak berapa sempurna, 
yang dah bernafas selama 17 tahun, 11 bulan dan 8 hari pada hari ini :) 



Jangan kau salah pegang pulak kata-kata aku ni. Aku minta ampun bukan sebab aku nak berperang SPM semata-mata. Tapi aku memang nak minta maaf. Aku banyak buat salah kat orang sedar tak sedar! 
Maafkan aku ya? 








Bukan senang nak maafkan orang. Susah. Aku tahu. 
TAHU SANGAT! 
Tapi susah pun susah sekejap je. Nanti kau akan rasa lega.


Kau nak simpan marah kau dekat orang yang kau marah tu dan tak mahu maafkan dia sampai bila-bila? 

Boleh. Tak ada masalah.



Nanti Tuhan pun nak buat macam tu. Tak mahu maafkan salah kau. 
Orang lain pun nak buat macam tu. Tak mahu maafkan salah kau. 





Aishh, main ganas lah kau ni Qistina. Nak main ugut-ugut suruh maafkan dia pulak.

Hehe.. Mana ada, aku bagi peringatan untuk kita bersama je.
Apa kata kita cuba sama-sama maafkan orang yang kita marah. 
Susah, susah pun apa salahnya kita cuba. 
Cuba betul-betul. Mana tahu terbuka hati kita kan? :)



Doakan biar aku tak gagal dalam SPM ya? 
Doa untuk semua budak SPM sekali.

AKU DAHULUKAN DENGAN KATA YANG IKHLAS - 
" TERIMA KASIH BANYAKKK!
 

Mungkin sampai berbuih mulut aku cakap terima kasih banyak kali kalau kau semua betul-betul doakan aku dan maafkan salah silap aku :D






Okay dah. Aku tak boleh lama di sini.
Aku sayang kau semua. Aku harap kita semua sama-sama berjaya. Berjaya ke mana sahaja jalan yang ada papan tanda kebaikan, insyaAllah. AMIN !




Qistina Ariff xx

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

You can hear lots of girls crying and sobbing !

Assalamualaikum.
Hi.



One of the cutest, most adorable, talented and every thing a girl could asked for in a guy just announced he got engaged to the media and the world today-16th of November 2010.
But he got engaged last week, on the 6th of November 2010.
So that means, after 10 ten days baru dia announce :D


Tu dia, melepas semua perempuan yang gila kat dia! Termasuk aku? Haha. Err, tak jugak.
I'm happy for him! How cute, cepat betul dah bertunang dah dia! :)

Tarikh nikah?
Err, aku tak ingat. Tapi around JULY OF 2011 !! :D





Siapa weh? 
NOH SALLEH si budak HUJAN yang comel tu! Awww dah bertunang dah dia.

Dengan siapa?
Mizz Nina si Cantik jelita !
 




Tak percaya?



*Sumber : Twitter account si Noh Salleh.







*Sumber : Twitter account si Dimas.


Awww could you just die looking at this picture? COMEL GILA OKAY! <3
Selamat untuk semuanya Noh! Semoga rezeki kau kian melimpah , AMIN :)





P/s , Lelaki baju hitam tu siapa? SIAPA? Ishh Dimas HUJAN lah, apalah kau ni.haha :P

Qistina Ariff xx

Saturday, 13 November 2010

Ohh No! Here we go again !

Assalammualaikum.
Hi !

You know people sometimes will ask you a bunch of questions that you knew were coming coz most of the questions are very common.

One day, it'll get to the point when you get tired of answering the same questions over and over again.
Have ya ever felt that way?
I HAVE !
Well, honestly I don't blame them. People will tend to get so curious sometimes. 

Common questions that people always ask me is....?


1. Dah lama pakai braces ?

-Yeah, it's been a while. I wore it since October 8th 2008. 



2. Sakit ?

-Of course it does! But it will only hurt for the first week after the doctor change the wire of my braces. 
And that happens once in every 6 weeks.



3. How do you eat?

-I eat like normal people do. Chew and swallow. 
But there are certain foods I have to stay away from. 

A) Hard foods- it can make the wire loose
B) Caramel foods- cause cavity/stain
C) Coffee- create stain
D) Coke- creates stain

Other than that, I don't really care. But I usually can't stay away from coke
Too tempting! :)


4. Do you brush your teeth? How?

- Of course I do  -___-  
I just pick up my tooth brush and brush em like normal people do!
The doctor courage me to brush it after every meal. 
Haha jangan harap aku buat. RAJINNYA! :P


5. Bila nak bukak?

- Maybe this year or next year. SEDIH!

- I told the doctor can I wear it forever? 

He said, "Waa! You wanna wear it forever ahh?

I laughed and said no lah. Can I wear it longer that I should be?

He said, "Tak boleh lah. Later your teeth will reput!!"

I said, "Aww too bad. I'm gonna miss my sparkling teeth"

He said, "hahaha. Yala. Nanti gigi you tak ada bling bling lagi ho?"
:)


6. Sekolah dekat mana?

- SMK (P) Methodist, Klang / Methodist Girls' School, Klang.

- Tidak. Tak best.

- Tidak, saya tidak bangga. Terlalu poyo. Mahukan terlalu banyak benda tapi tiada usaha.

- Saya rindu sekolah lama. 
SEKOLAH KEBANGSAAN SEKSYEN 9, SHAH ALAM ! <3


7. Study dan bla bla ?

- Tingkatan LIMA. 

-Ya, ya. Saya budak SPM. 

-Ya, saya takut dan cuak. 

- Belum, saya belum bersedia nak SPM.

- Pure Accounts Class.

- Susah tak susah lah 10 subjek ada. 

- Accounts? SUSAH. Ya. Saya benci, terima kasih. 



8. What do you want to be when you grow up?

- For now, a journalist. Please no politics! 
If I can't pursue with that, I wanna be a lecturer(non-government). 

- No, no I don't want to be a teacher. 
Too much kissing government's and principal's ass. Yuck. Other than that? 
Hmm. I'm stuck. Shit.

- Part time book/novel author insyaAllah.

- Part time theater supporter pleaseee ! :)

- Part time animal shelter owner.

Too much? Yes, I know. I want so many different things.
ONE AT A TIME !
All I know is that I don't want to work with the government PLEASE ALLAH! 


That's all I can re-call for now. Bye. Study time :/


Satu persatu. Jangan rush. Tenang, slow and easy.
Selamber tetapi fokus. Yah. Aku bolehhhh~
Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim !


Qistina Ariff xx

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

My Boring facts 1.

Assalammualaikum.
Hi.


Things that I love and hate are the things that show who am I and what am I made of inside.
So here are a few boring facts about me.

1. Allergic to ants.
Every time I see lots and lots of ants crawling around, my nose will itch like hell and my arm hair will stand. 
Well, too be honest, not only ants. But also little tiny insects. Ants, termites, their cousins and so on.


2. I can't eat if people kept staring at me.
Especially messy foods like apple pies, creamy donuts, ice cream cones. I will feel so shy coz I probably eat like a three year old kid. Or even worse than them :|


3. I sing a lot in a day.
If you're living with me, you would know. My day won't be complete and I'll feel very awkward if I didn't sing :)


4. Don't judge em in front of me.
If you want to judge other people who I love and care about, don't do it in front of me. My respect for you will decrease bit by bit.



5. Numbers and me don't match that well.
Got any mathematics or accounts questions you wanna ask me? Well, just SAVE it. 
Mathematics and accounts hates me. They like to torture me. 



6. Can't walk alone.
If I'm at a mall or in a public place, I have to have someone to walk with me. If I walk alone, I'll feel so creepy as if everyone is watching me. Sort of like an OCD ( Obsessive-Compulsive disorder ) I think.
So, yeah I can't walk alone. And I hate walking with someone who walks faster than me.


7. If I'm pissed off, you'll know it.
I won't talk that much. I'll do a grumpy face. You would know that I'm mad/sad in no time.
p/s: I will be moody only if that someone who matters so much to me did a mistake.



8. I like to talk.
A lot ! The more I like that person, the more I'll talk.
If every time you're around me and I talk just a little, that means I can't connect with you. 
Probably, that means I don't like you man, haha.



9. Love worms.
Since I was a kid, I love worms. 
Earth worms, the long ones. I love playing with them. They are so adorable and cute.
But my current home's garden is not that big. So, earth worms doesn't live there :(
I wish I could still play with them ! 



10. Not a heavy food lover.
Heavy foods ? I only eat it once a day. People usually eat 2/3 times a day right? But I can't. 
So, don't aspect me to eat like a pig even when the food is fucking delicious.
I think my tummy's space for foods is so little lah :|


Till next time peeps! :)





I'm stuck on Michael Jackson's hit songs now. Ohh, no! Can't stop dancing!

Qistina Ariff xx




Tuesday, 9 November 2010

Every rose has its thorn

Assalammualaikum. 
Hi. 

One of my must hear song before I go to bed ! <3














Qistina Ariff xx

Saturday, 6 November 2010

Aku nak marah jugak!

Assalammualaikum.
Hi.

Tak sedap je hati aku ni. Tunggang terbalik semuanya.
Keliru dibuatnya. Nak sedih atau marah?
Ikutkan hati nak saja aku mengamuk macam orang gila yang disampuk.

Benci benci benci benci.
Marah marah marah marah.
Faham tak? Manusia lagi ke tu? 
Ada hati lagi? Ada akal lagi?
Betul lagi ke? Waras lagi?

Maafkan aku. Aku tahu manusia tak sempurna tapi aku marah pun sebab aku manusia yang tak sempurna. Tak ada cukup kesabaran. Jadi aku nak marah jugak. Boleh?

Ini pun aku sedang menahan sambil mengusap-ngusap hati cuba menyabarkan diri.
Tapi darah aku tengah menyirap. Kalau sirap tu takpe lagi boleh diminum.

Dah tu je lah.
Kang tercarut-carut aku kat sini. Dah tambah dosa.
Aku nak jerit je lah. Jerit puas-puas. 
Dalam situasi sekarang ni, tempat yang paling afdhal aku nak jerit ialah hati.
Aku tumpang jerit ya hati?





 Terima kasih hati.



p/s- Dengar-dengar SPM nak kena delay lagi? Kalau ya, Alhamdulillah. Mungkin masa tu aku lagi tenang nak bersedia. Sekarang ni entah lah.

Qistina Ariff xx

Thursday, 4 November 2010

I'm hearing all kind of fireworks already.

Hi.

HAPPY DIWALI / DEEPAVALI to all Hindus out there !
Have a blast okay guys ? :) 

Suddenly I feel like I wanna wear a saree or a lenga suit.
This was during Merdeka celebration in school this year. 
I was wearing a lenga suit and Aidee was wearing a saree. She's super gorgeous <3


  I miss this moment ! :)
Qistina Ariff xx 

Yang kuperlu

Assalammualaikum.
Hi.


Terlalu kusut isi kotak fikiranku sekarang ni.
Semakin berputar masa, semakinku mengigit jari kerisauan.
Terlalu banyak yang kuhadapi sekarang ni.
Ruang kapasiti kepalaku semakin sempit dihimpit kau yang bernama M.
Bukan Maria, bukan Mukhsin.
Bukan Messi, bukan Miguel.
Tetapi Encik MASALAH.


Masalah yang merisaukan.
Masalah yang membuatkan aku tidak tentu hala.
Dia lah nyawaku.
Dia lah jantungku.
Dia lah hidupku.
Sekarang dia sedang diuji Allah dan aku turut merasa tempiasnya.
Sedih, marah dan buntu tukar silih berganti menghantui hatiku.
Bila nak selesai ?
Allah saja tahu.


Belum lagi dicampur risau perang besarku.
Perang yang akan muncul 16 hari lagi.
Apa? 16 hari lagi?
Sedang aku masih terkapai-kapai,
cuba menggenggam keputusan yang baik
yang tak menentu turun naik paras selamatnya.
Sempat atau tidak ? 
Allah saja tahu.

Rahmat yang kuperlu.
Ketenangan jiwa yang kuperlu.
Harapan yang kuperlu.
Ketabahan yang kuperlu.
Dari siapa ?
Allah SWT yang maha berkuasa.
InsyaAllah, kanku rasa yang kuperlu.




Tarikh: 04 November 2010
Masa: Pagi
Tempat: Hati

 Jangan goyah, jangan lalai, jangan alpa.

Qistina Ariff xx

Monday, 1 November 2010

Don't look for me.

Assalammualaikum.
Hi.

I have so many weaknesses and flaws. Who's prefect ?
No one except Allah SWT. 

Don't look for me if you want to taste the satisfaction of perfection.
Probably, I'm the last person in the list of who rarely did mistakes in the world list.

I have so much of negativity in my mind and my heart right now. 
My blog is turning into a dark place and I hate that. I'm so sorry peeps. 
You can skip some of the dark posts, I don't mind :)


Things I hate.



 1. Problem solving mission turned into a disaster. 
I love hearing people's problems, love stories, sad moments or just hearing people talk their hearts out.  
If you want to find a friend to listen to, I will always be there. 
But the problem with me is, I will always try to solve your problems as hard as I can even when you didn't ask me to. I hate myself for doing that coz I'm not a good problem solver sometimes. When I care too much about a person, that is what I'll do.
 
A little reminder friends:
If you don't want me to solve things, you should really told me not to. Make me swear not to tell anyone, then I will never tell anyone. Make me promise not to butt-in to solve your problems. 
I'm sorry but this is me.
Make me swear okay, I'm serious !




2. I hate myself for caring too much.
I always want better things for my loved ones. Always. I hate myself for doing that coz somewhere in the middle I will probably get hurt. People don't get me sometimes and I don't get people sometimes. Why loving someone is so complicated ? No I'm not talking about loving a boyfriend. I'm talking about loving a person in general. 

Loving a friend is one of the hardest things I've tasted. All of us want different things and try to get the things we want in our own different way. That's probably why it's so hard. Because sometimes, we don't try to understand each other and it sucks coz we love each other. At least that's what I'm feeling. 




3.Just have to bear with it.
I tried to stop caring too much, but I've failed. I always think " Arghh, I don't wanna care anymore,that's it!"
But I always came back crawling into that "I have to care" zone
I guess, I'll be caring for them all my life, I have no choice. I will always be me even I'll get hurt.

Well come to think of it, when we get hurt, we'll get some wounds that will turn into a scar.
And one day, that scar will someway, somehow disappear as time goes by. I just have to bear it for a while.








Sometimes we need to taste bitterness to appreciate the sweetness of life.
Qistina Ariff xx